Introducing……

Milah Gracie Lu Running!

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2 years and 14 days after she came into our home, we finally got to finalize her adoption!

The last 2 years have been filled with immense joy, immense frustration, immense anxiety but mostly immense love.

WE are so Blessed and Thankful that she will forever be our daughter and Bella’s Sissy.

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I can finally freely write about the girls and our life and I am so ecstatic about that.  I really haven’t written much at all because I couldn’t talk about our real life.  I started a new blog about the girls that I can finally link you to.

https://wordpress.com/view/two-little-monkeys.com

I hope you follow us over there and I’ll continue to pop in here to write sometimes too.

Have a great week!

Lots of Love~Dawn

Wait for it….

In 14 days, I’m finally going to be free to share some major stuff with you guys. At least if there’s still any of you out there following this blog. For now though, I’ll do one of those fun question/answer getting to know you things. Here’s the questions if you want to play along:

1. Do you make your bed every morning?

2. What was your first car?

3. What two grocery items do you never run out of?

4. At what age did you start doing your laundry?

5. If you could, would you go back to high school?

6. Can you parallel park in under three moves?

7. A job you had which people would be shocked to know you once had?

8. Do you think aliens are real?

9. Can you drive a stick shift?

10. Guilty TV pleasure?

11. Tattoos?

12. If the world ends do you want to be one of survivors?

13. Sweet or salty?

14. Do you enjoy soaking in a nice hot bath?

15. Do you consider yourself a strong person?

16. Something people do that drives you nuts?

17. Do you have any birthmarks?

18. Favorite childhood game?

19. Do you talk to yourself?

20. Do you like doing jigsaw puzzles?

21. Tea or coffee?

22. First thing you remember wanting to be when you grew up?

23. Favorite game now?

1. Do you make your bed every morning?

Nope, but J usually throws the covers up and makes it look halfway decent.

2. What was your first car?

A blue 87′ (I think) Dodge Aries. Ladies, it was freaking loud and I totally think my parents did that on purpose. See, my Dad was a cop in our town but not only did I have to deal with living with one but we also had an officer that lived next door and one across the street. Loud car = all of them knowing when I was coming and going.

3. What 2 grocery items do you never run out of?

Ha…whatever I’m NOT in the mood for. If it’s something I use or want on a regular basis, I’ll have run out of it at some point.

4. At what age did you start doing your own laundry?

I fully admit my Mama spoiled me in this regard. She taught me right before I left for college. However, my Mom is like THE stain master so I still give her the clothes I can’t get stains out of. I’m getting better at stains but I’m nowhere near her expertise.

5. If you could, would you go back to high school?

I would on two conditions. 1.). It’d still be the 90’s because I would not want to be a high schooler in this day and age and 2.) I’d have the wisdom I’ve gained in the almost 25 years it’s been since I graduated.

6. Can you parallel park in under 3 moves?

Rarely!

7. A job you had that people would be shocked to know you once had.

Umm, I got nothing. Waitress, cashier at a grocery store, teacher’s aid in a daycare center, nanny, in home daycare provider.

8. Do you think aliens are real?

I don’t really have an opinion on the subject one way or the other.

9. Can you drive a stick shift?

Sure can! The day I got my learner’s permit my Sister picked me up from school and took me out to the country roads to teach me to drive stick.

10. Guilty TV pleasure?

So we got this smart tv a couple months ago and it has the bi he channels where they place the same show 24/7. I found the Dallas Cowboy Cheerleaders: Making the team and I watch it obsessively even though I’ve seen most of the episodes multiple times. I’ve only seen every episode of Gilmore Girls more times than I can count.

11. Tattoos?

Not yet but have plans to possibly get 2.

12. if the world ends, do you want to be one of the survivors?

Nope, I’d want my whole family just go to heaven together.

13. Sweet or Salty?

Pretty much always sweet.

14. Do you enjoy taking a nice hot bath?

Sure, when I can be bothered with getting all the girls bath toys up and cleaning it out first.

15. Do you consider yourself a strong person?

Hell yeah!

16. Something that people do that drives you nuts?

Slow drivers, loading the dishwasher wrong, not matching the correct top to the sippy cup (can you say OCD much?! Never knew I was til I got married, lol).

17. Do you have any birthmarks?

Nope

18. Favorite childhood game?

Ghost in the Graveyard. Uno and jumping rope.

19. Do you talk to yourself?

All the damn time.

20. Do you like doing jigsaw puzzles?

I don’t mind them but I don’t do them either except with the girls.

21. Tea or coffee?

All the coffee but I don’t mind certain teas.

22. First thing you remember wanting to be when you grew up?

I think a teacher.

23. Favorite game now?

Euchre

I’m still here…

Are any of you?! I just hopped on the WordPress app in what feels like forever and started catching up on the last couple months of blogs. I truly miss reading and writing on my own. I will hopefully get back to at least semi regular posts soon. In the meantime, I have started a new blog but as silly as it sounds, if you want to know what it is, I need you to email me because I can’t post it here. Pdot95@gmail.com

In the meantime, I hope you all are well! I miss you and miss keeping up with you so I will try to do better.

Lots of Love~Dawn

Weary Mama

Hello Friends!

Long time, no posts.  I often think of posting, but because my blog hasn’t been super anonymous and because of what’s happening on my end, I no longer feel comfortable putting it out there for whoever to read and private posts are such a pain.

So, instead, I think what I’m going to do for the time being is post via emailing.  If you would like to get the posts via email, please send me your email address as well as what blog you’re from.  Again, I will probably keep this to those that have been reading for awhile just to be on the safe side and I hope to be able to post to my actual blog again very soon.

Here’s my email address:  pdot95@gmail.com.

Lots of Love~Dawn

Long Overdue Update

Right now, I”m sitting here at 5pm on a Saturday evening, cuddled up with a blanket and our little dog, drinking coffee with a Hallmark movie on in the background.  Rocky is sleeping up in the window and J is just waking from a snooze in the chair next to me after spending all afternoon reffing a basketball tournament.  What you don’t hear right now is the sound of 2 little girls giggling, fighting, whining, or chatting.

Mama took a much needed self care day and Grandma is keeping the girls so J and I can go to a Johnny Cash and June Carter tribute band tonight.  I love my girls something fierce, but I also live for these moments of silence to relax, reconnect and rejuvenate the energy it takes to care for two toddlers 2 and under.

I’ve been having a rough time the last couple of days.  The emotions around waiting for TPR to be filed for M and going through the adoption home study process is getting to me.  Nothing is a sure thing until the TPR happens and the adoption is finalized.  Thinking about life without M in our family and the damage it would do to her and Bella (not to mention J and I and the rest of our families) feels like a crushing weight on my chest and it gets worse with each passing day and week that we wait for things to get rolling.  We thought TPR was going to be filed before Thanksgiving with the hearings before Christmas and here we sit, still waiting.  She’ll be 16 months in a couple of weeks and she’s been with us since she was 2 days old.  It’s harder than you can imagine unless you’ve been here.  We have a home visit with M’s social worker on the 24th so hopefully we’ll get some answers then and we have our 2nd meeting with the adoption social worker on the 25th.

Updates on the girls:

Bella is doing great for the most part.  Her language is really starting to come fast.  Her favorite sentence is “I do it!”.  She repeats almost everything we say and although I still have trouble understanding what she wants sometimes and she still resorts to whining and tantrums more than I would like, we’re working on it.  I’m taking a 6 week class on Tuesday nights called Love and Logic and it’s all about using natural or logical consequences as often as we can but doing it with empathy instead of frustration or anger.  I still yell more than I’d like but it’s getting better and I feel like last week was a much better week than we’ve had in awhile as far as her listening a little better and me yelling a little less.  Yes, I do yell at my beautiful blessing and then I feel a shit ton of guilt for doing it so I’m excited about this new method.  She has her last gymnastics class of the session on Wednesday evening, but we’re signing her right up for the next session so there won’t be a break in weeks for her.  She  doesn’t always stay with the group but she loves doing the bars and her favorite part is jumping on the trampoline and going in the foam block pit at the end of class.  One of our friends bought the girls a balance beam that sits on the floor for Christmas so she practices on that.  She’s got her colors down pat and her favorite color is purple.  We’re working on shapes and counting things with her now.  She is still a climber and a complete spitfire.  Her lack of weight gain is a little concerning.  Dr. G wants to see her again in March to check her weight instead of waiting until she’s 3.  She’s not much of a eater and when she does, except or fruit, she rarely wants healthy things.  We can get her to eat string cheese and eggs once in awhile.  Dr. G suggested smoothies with greek yogurt but she doesn’t like them and I’ve tried them with the young living protein powder too and she’s still not a huge fan.  I’ve also tried pedicure and she wants nothing to do with those.  We’ll see what March brings.  Did I mention in a past post that Bella is in a big girl bed now?  I think I did but not sure.  It happened quite by accident and she was doing great but now she comes into our room pretty much every night and most times, we just pull her into bed with us.  Once in awhile if it’s really early in the night, I’ll try to put her back into her room.

M is doing great.  She’s a fantastic sleep and eater and when we went into urgent care for all of us one weekend, she was 4 oz heavier then Bells.  She says a few words, mama, dada, uh oh, no no, and baby are her big ones.  She’s a very speedy crawler, has stairs down pat, and will walk along furniture and behind toys meant to help with walking but she refuses to stand on her own for more than a second or two and absolutely refuses to try taking a step on her own.  She’s got this machine gun like laugh and she thinks it is hilarious to stand by herself so I feel like she knocks herself down with the vibration of her laugh.  She may not walk yet, but like Bella, she’s a climber.  I had to rearrange the furniture in the living room because she was using the couch to climb on the kitchen counter but then would try to slide off the counter on her belly to the floor like she does from chairs and she’s just not that tall, lol.

Both girls are obsessed with baby shark and will sing and do the actions to it.  Bella even does it in her sleep sometimes.  She’s starting to know the words to other songs too and watching her sing Skidamarinky doo is the cutest thing ever.

J is doing well too.  He has just over a month left of coaching to do and then he’s finally done until September.  I’m so thankful he doesn’t coach a spring sport.

I hope everyone is doing well, and I’m trying to squeeze in reading blog posts when I can because people are having babies and I didn’t even know they were pregnant which puts me a good 9 months behind on reading!

Lots of Love~Dawn

 

Here we go again!

We’ve sent in the adoption packet for M! Rights still need to be terminated and we still need the home study done and approved so of course, it’s still completely nerve wracking.

Please send prayers and positive thoughts for everyone involved. As beautiful as adoption is, there is loss for 2 parties of the triangle.

Hope you are all well!

Lots of Love~Dawn

Project Weekend

J is in Colorado hunting. He left late Thursday night and will get back home on Wednesday. Knowing he was going to be gone, I purposely asked my Mom to take the girls for the weekend so I could get some much needed projects done around the house.

I have a room down in our basement that I want to set up as my office and it’s just been the catch all room. My goal was to get it all cleaned out and set up. I actually had several goals this weekend. I’ll bullet point them to make it easy.

  • Clean and completely organize and set up office.
  • Surprise J by having our neighbor come over and put in the carpet we’ve had sitting in the basement for 6 years come Black Friday. It’s for what is now A’s room. When he did the other 2 bedrooms like 5 years ago, our roommate was still here and in that room with big, heavy furniture so we decided to wait. I got tired of waiting. 😂
  • Get the twin bed frame we have painted and set up in A’s room so when she’s up in the middle of the night, I can stay in there with her if need be without sleeping in the floor.
  • Lower M’s crib Mattress
  • Spray paint a book shelf and some storage racks for the girls bedroom.
  • Clean our room and hang up pictures
  • Pull all the daycare toys into a different room I. Our basement and just put out one tote of toys and change it up every week so it’s easier for my younger group to do clean up each day.
  • Completely clean and organize living room and kitchen.
  • Sand down peeling paint on the door going out to the garage and spray paint it.
  • Clean our bathroom.

Out of those things, I went through all the paperwork that was in the soon to be office and got things moved around enough to actually walk in there. I got the toys pulled but still need to go down and pick out toys for the week. I got the bed frame painted but there were parts missing to completely put it together so my Mom is going to go to the store tomorrow and cut the wood to size for what I need and we’ll finish that up tomorrow. The new carpet is in! It looks so good! I may love the GB packers but I was tired of the Green Bay green carpet. I got M’s mattress lowered and their rooms set up with the newly spray painted storage. Last, but not least, I got the living room organized and cleaned and the kitchen partly organized and cleaned. I have carpet cleaners coming on Tuesday to do the area rugs in the living room and the carpet in the basement.

It feels good to have gotten so much done but now I need a weekend for everyone to be gone again so I can just relax on the couch with the dogs, lol.

Hope all is well with everyone and that you have a great weekend!

Lots of Love~Dawn

PS. Some after pics and one before of the kitchen.