See What I Mean?

I told you I’m terrible at forming habits!  I forgot to do Fact Friday again…although, technically, I didn’t forget.  I did remember at some point in the day, but not a point when I could actually write the post and then the day just got away from me.  Oh well, I’ll just hold onto my fact til next Friday.

Remember when I told you that I asked God for a very specific sign (if not, you can read about it here)?  He did not come to me how I asked…however, I did have a dream the Sunday night after I asked for a sign.  I dreamt that my chiropractor was telling me I needed to go on bcp and I kept telling him no, we want to get pregnant and bcp defeats the purpose.  Then he said to me, Dawn, you need to go on bcp because your heart cannot handle a pregnancy.  Say What?!!!!!  Now, I do not know that this was actually God trying to tell me something because everything in the dream had been talked about that weekend so it is more likely just a manifestation of that.  On Friday, I had weighed myself and told my Mom I was almost 160lbs. (I’m 5’1).  She had said to me, “You don’t look like you are but that’s not good for your heart.”  Saturday morning when I was talking to the nurse about what to do this cycle, she mentioned going on bcp to make sure my ovaries have a quiet month.  And then on Sunday I hurt my back and had an appt with my chiro on Monday.  So see, it is all very explainable why I would dream what I did.

However, I couldn’t really get that out of my mind.  My Dad had open heart surgery when he was younger than I am.  I’ve gained a ton of weight.  My calves have been seizing up, my arms have been going numb and so I am going to finally call a Dr. tomorrow to get a check up.  I haven’t seen anyone other than a gyno or an RE since forever.  I haven’t had a physical since I left for college.  I’m hoping my gut is totally wrong and I’m fine, but I feel like at this point, it’s better to be safe than sorry.

I have been better since Friday about paying attention to what I’m eating and getting some exercise.  I’m not fantastic on the food yet, but I am plugging it all into my fitness pal and I have been getting at least a walk in each day.  This afternoon I restarted the c25k program.   Here’s to making some healthy changes in my life!

Have a great week!


11 thoughts on “See What I Mean?

  1. Wow, what a freaky dream…..especially with everything that followed. I’ve never experienced anything like that before. Good luck with the c25k program, it really is a great program…..I did it last summer, and actually completed it and ran a 5k (not very fast, but I did run the whole way). I’m working on making some healthy changes too. I’ve gained so much weight over the past few years, pretty sure I weigh more than my husband right now….which is terribly embarrassing to me. Good luck to you, I’m right there with Ya!!!!!

  2. I’m kinda like you and thinking the dream was just a manifestation of the previous activities and conversations but I would def get a physical of some sort as maybe your blood pressure is too high and you need to get that lowered before you should seek pregnancy. I know that blood pressure is something I am praying about for myself because I know that if I get pregnant with my high blood pressure, it won’t be healthy for me or the baby.

    I started a gluten free diet today and will continue for ten days. I want to see if it helps my pcos symptoms. I read an article last week that gluten can aggravate women with PCOS…so we shall see…

  3. OH and I read something tonight that for some reason made me think of you…”When God is silent, we must remain silent.” It was talking about when we are directly asking for wisdom and direction from God and we hear nothing that we should also do nothing until we do hear. I’m not sure if that helps you at all but for some reason I did think of you.

    • Thank you! The funny thing is, my blood pressure is perfect! Even when I’m stressed and they take it, it’s still low. I can be a bit of hypochondriac at times (I really was when I was a kid, lol) but I don’t know, my gut is just telling me to make sure I’m all good. Silence…now that’s something I need to work on…I tend to want an answer right now, lol.

  4. Small changes will make a huge difference. Getting the eating under control is the most difficult…last night I ate the rest of the cookies I baked on Saturday so that I could start Monday out with no temptations! Probably not the best idea! Good luck to you! You can do it!

  5. Thank you! I always try and do that too but between my husband and our roommate, crappy food always ends up back in the house so I just need to find more willpower. 🙂 And of course, it’s Fall so I want to be baking yummy food but if I bake it, I will eat it!

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