I told you I’m terrible at forming habits! I forgot to do Fact Friday again…although, technically, I didn’t forget. I did remember at some point in the day, but not a point when I could actually write the post and then the day just got away from me. Oh well, I’ll just hold onto my fact til next Friday.
Remember when I told you that I asked God for a very specific sign (if not, you can read about it here)? He did not come to me how I asked…however, I did have a dream the Sunday night after I asked for a sign. I dreamt that my chiropractor was telling me I needed to go on bcp and I kept telling him no, we want to get pregnant and bcp defeats the purpose. Then he said to me, Dawn, you need to go on bcp because your heart cannot handle a pregnancy. Say What?!!!!! Now, I do not know that this was actually God trying to tell me something because everything in the dream had been talked about that weekend so it is more likely just a manifestation of that. On Friday, I had weighed myself and told my Mom I was almost 160lbs. (I’m 5’1). She had said to me, “You don’t look like you are but that’s not good for your heart.” Saturday morning when I was talking to the nurse about what to do this cycle, she mentioned going on bcp to make sure my ovaries have a quiet month. And then on Sunday I hurt my back and had an appt with my chiro on Monday. So see, it is all very explainable why I would dream what I did.
However, I couldn’t really get that out of my mind. My Dad had open heart surgery when he was younger than I am. I’ve gained a ton of weight. My calves have been seizing up, my arms have been going numb and so I am going to finally call a Dr. tomorrow to get a check up. I haven’t seen anyone other than a gyno or an RE since forever. I haven’t had a physical since I left for college. I’m hoping my gut is totally wrong and I’m fine, but I feel like at this point, it’s better to be safe than sorry.
I have been better since Friday about paying attention to what I’m eating and getting some exercise. I’m not fantastic on the food yet, but I am plugging it all into my fitness pal and I have been getting at least a walk in each day. This afternoon I restarted the c25k program. Here’s to making some healthy changes in my life!
Have a great week!