WI Proud!

Ladies…I don’t know what got into me this weekend but I did something I have never done before and J totally went along with it!  We went to this big sweatshirt sale on Friday night.  It was held in this big convention center in the city closest to us.  While we were there, we found these:


And I bought them!!!

Now, I know a lot of you buy things for your eventual baby, but we never have.  This was a big step for us in proving to ourselves that we have faith that God is going to bring us our baby (hopefully soon, lol).

In other news, unless there is a second immaculate conception, there is no way we are pregnant this month.  I’m all most positive that I ovulated way early this month (like cd11, I think).  J wasn’t feeling well at all last week so we did not have any kind of fun.  It would seriously be a double miracle if I got pregnant this month.

I’ve also been doing good on logging in and tracking my food every day on myfitnesspal.  I’m not always staying under my calories, especially on the weekends but I’m tracking and paying attention and that’s a huge step.  Last week I didn’t have any soda during the week and I’m going to try and do that again this week.  I completed week 1 of c25k and amazingly enough managed to get up at 5am today to get in the first day of week 2.  I’m having dinner tonight with one of my good friends that I haven’t seen in forever so I knew I wouldn’t have time to get it done tonight.

It’s a rainy, gloomy day here in WI and I totally wish I could curl up and nap with the kids right now!  I hope you all have a great week!


Fall, Food, and Fitness

I love Fall!  I love being back in my sweats and sweatshirts.  I love the changing leaves.  I love football.  I love baking in the Fall. Unfortunately, I think our Fall here in WI is going to be pretty short lived.

So far, I have resisted my usual Fall baking.  I did make banana bread yesterday, but I don’t like it so it’s easy to resist, lol.  I made one loaf with chocolate chips and one without.  The dog managed to grab the one without off the counter when I was giving pieces to the babies…grrrr!  Luckily, I got it away from him before he managed to eat it, but it was still ruined.  😦  I have put off making pumpkin chocolate chip cookies and pumpkin bread, but I think I’m going to have to cave soon and just try to keep it to 1 or 2 a day with my coffee in the morning.

I started myfitnesspal again this past Friday.  Out of the 5 days, I’ve gone over twice…both times were way over.  The first time was Saturday and although I was purposely tracking, I wasn’t purposely being good yet.  Last night, we went to Outback.  I LOVE Outback and had been craving it quite awhile.  I resisted getting soda and stuck with water, but there’s no way for me to resist the Bloomin’ Onion.  It is just too darn good!  I also got the filet and lobster tail.  I ate the lobster tail and part of my baked potato and saved the steak and the rest of the potato for today or tomorrow.

I also skipped Zumba which I fully intended on going to until we found out that a friend of J’s and Best Friend to one of dc parents passed away Monday night.  I didn’t want to leave J alone with his thoughts last night so instead we went to his little cousin’s football game, grabbed dinner and then had a fun shopping trip at Shopko.  I need to go back because I found quite a few things to get J for Christmas.  🙂

So between bible study and meetings, I have yet to make it to Zumba.  However, I have restarted the c25k program and did that on Sunday afternoon and Monday night.  Sunday went well but Monday was not easy, graceful or fast.  My calves started acting up again but I kept at it and got it done.  We also did a ton of raking on Sunday afternoon so I burned a lot of calories that way.  I will get back on the treadmill tonight after work.  My goal is to do something at least 4-5 days a week.  Even if it just means fitting in a walk with the babies.

On the TTC front, I thought for sure the cyst on my right ovary was about to burst at about 3am this morning, but the pain has subsided for the most part.  I should also be ovulating this week so I’m not sure if that’s all it is.  Hopefully, that’s not what I was feeling because this is cd11 and it’s a bit early for me on a natural cycle.  Normally I only let the babies nap for an hour in the morning so they sleep well in the afternoons, but they all have colds and are grumpy and my right side is still sore so I’m letting them sleep til they wake up today.  We still have no decision made on whether or not we’re going to try another IUI before the new year.  I was sure I was done and then I started seeing different success stories on Fertile thoughts this past month and with bloggers that I’m following and so now I have the itch to try again.  I just do not know what to do.  I’m trying not to think about it too much right now.

Only 23 days more to go until we head out for our Anniversary weekend in Door County and taking a page from Elisha at Waiting For Baby Bird, I also planned another outing for November to help re-ignite the spark in our marriage.  Not that it’s totally gone, but I would say it’s dimmed slightly.  November’s event is going to see Garth Brooks in Minneapolis.  I’m so stinkin’ excited!!!  Our seats are in the nosebleed section at Target Center but I don’t care.  I can’t wait to share this experience with J.  Now I need to start thinking up something good for December!

I know many of my IF Sisters are going through a rougher time than usual right now.  Know that you all are in my thoughts daily and I’m sending lots of love out to all of you!


See What I Mean?

I told you I’m terrible at forming habits!  I forgot to do Fact Friday again…although, technically, I didn’t forget.  I did remember at some point in the day, but not a point when I could actually write the post and then the day just got away from me.  Oh well, I’ll just hold onto my fact til next Friday.

Remember when I told you that I asked God for a very specific sign (if not, you can read about it here)?  He did not come to me how I asked…however, I did have a dream the Sunday night after I asked for a sign.  I dreamt that my chiropractor was telling me I needed to go on bcp and I kept telling him no, we want to get pregnant and bcp defeats the purpose.  Then he said to me, Dawn, you need to go on bcp because your heart cannot handle a pregnancy.  Say What?!!!!!  Now, I do not know that this was actually God trying to tell me something because everything in the dream had been talked about that weekend so it is more likely just a manifestation of that.  On Friday, I had weighed myself and told my Mom I was almost 160lbs. (I’m 5’1).  She had said to me, “You don’t look like you are but that’s not good for your heart.”  Saturday morning when I was talking to the nurse about what to do this cycle, she mentioned going on bcp to make sure my ovaries have a quiet month.  And then on Sunday I hurt my back and had an appt with my chiro on Monday.  So see, it is all very explainable why I would dream what I did.

However, I couldn’t really get that out of my mind.  My Dad had open heart surgery when he was younger than I am.  I’ve gained a ton of weight.  My calves have been seizing up, my arms have been going numb and so I am going to finally call a Dr. tomorrow to get a check up.  I haven’t seen anyone other than a gyno or an RE since forever.  I haven’t had a physical since I left for college.  I’m hoping my gut is totally wrong and I’m fine, but I feel like at this point, it’s better to be safe than sorry.

I have been better since Friday about paying attention to what I’m eating and getting some exercise.  I’m not fantastic on the food yet, but I am plugging it all into my fitness pal and I have been getting at least a walk in each day.  This afternoon I restarted the c25k program.   Here’s to making some healthy changes in my life!

Have a great week!


The Whole Armor of God

Ephesians 6:10-17

10 A final word: Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the devil. 12 For we are not fighting against flesh and blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places. 13 Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil.  Then after the battle you will still be standing firm. 14 Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth and body armor of God’s righteousness. 15 For shoes, put on the peace that comes for the Good News so that you will be fully prepared. 16 In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil. 17 Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

As I just read these words a few minutes ago, they really spoke to me.  For J and I, we are in one of the biggest battles of our life.  J actually has 2 huge battles going on in his life at this moment and you can bet I will be sharing these verses with him today.  I like write them on post its and put them on our bathroom mirror to help him to stay encouraged.  Infertility feels like war…each cycle is a new battle.  We may get knocked down over and over but it will not kill us…Ultimately, we will not lose this war.

I feel like the only way we can truly lose this war is if we let it destroy our marriage and our lives.  I believe God can heal me.  I believe that God’s will may be that we become parents through adoption.  Adoption is not for everyone but J and I have been talking about adopting since we met and we both have the hearts for it.  I believe that no matter how our children come to us, God meant for those children to be ours.

In the meantime, we have many children who’s lives we are apart of.  We have 11 nieces and nephews between us.  We have cousins and best friends that consider us to be Auntie and Uncle to their children.  J has his students and I have numerous daycare kids who’s lives I get to be a part of.  I have my kids (okay, 2 of them are adults now, but they’ll always be my kids) that I nannied for 10 years and played a huge part in raising them and helping to teach them values.   No matter what happens, no matter where God’s plan takes us, we will be okay as long as we stay strong in our marriage and have each other.