I got hit with a double whammy tonight and I just don’t know what to do. I know what I would love to do, but unfortunately, financially, it can’t happen.
Tonight, not 1, but 2 families told me they’re pulling their kids in June. It’s not because of me or the care I give, but it’s still really, really hard not to take it personally. One family is the first family we took. J and the Dad are good friends and the Mom and I have gotten very close too. They have a little boy who will be 2 in June. They are moving him to a center closer to their house. And I get it, I really do. It’s an inconvenience to bring him all the way here and they feel bad that he’s here so late when all my other kids are gone by 5pm. I totally get it and although it was hard to hear, I was okay with it. I would love to not be working til 5:30 at night.
Then, I got a text from another parent and they are pulling their little girl when she turns 2 and sending her to the same center as her brother. Again, I get it, kind of. I’m literally 2 minutes from the other center so it’s not a huge inconvenience for them to pick up at 2 different places.
Now, I’m completely afraid I’m going to lose a third because they are at 3 different daycares between their 3 kids and I’m so afraid as soon as she turns 2, they’ll pull her too.
Let me tell you, I ugly cried big time tonight. It’s not just the financial side…I’ve seen D most days since he was 2 months old and E is just a sweet little cuddle bug. I am going to miss them. And I don’t want to have to replace them. I don’t want to take on babies again because the kids were finally getting to the age where I was actually going to be able to do stuff with them again.
I honestly don’t want new kids at all. I want to stick with the 2 I have and the part timer I’ll have starting in the fall, but I know we can’t afford that. I’m going to have to advertise for new kids and it just sucks. I hate it!
Sorry for the vent…just feeling a little heartbroken tonight and have so many conflicting emotions right now.