I cry almost daily.
I feel miserable in my job and don’t know exactly why.
I am probably losing a 3rd daycare kid because Mom’s hours changed and I don’t want to continue working until 5:30pm.
I don’t know what to do.
I don’t know what I can do to continue to work from home, but not do daycare.
I can’t stop doing daycare because I already told some friends of ours I would take their little girl part time in the fall and I don’t want to go back on my word.
I get upset about stupid stuff and don’t know why, but also can’t seem to help myself.
I love each and every one of my kiddos, I’m just not loving them as a collective group right now.
I really don’t know what to do.
Am I just lonely during the day? Are they just in a horrible phase? Will it be better if I start over again with babies?
Even though I didn’t want to do that, it may be my only choice. I moved the daycare to WS so that I could get on the same schedule as J and instead, I haven’t done that at all because we need the money. We still need the money but I don’t know if I can continue day in and day out.
I’m hoping that everything that’s happened in the last year is just finally coming to a head and after a few weeks away this summer, things will be better, but I just don’t know.
Childcare is all I know outside of managing a household. I have no skills in anything else and I don’t really want to go get a job outside of the house when we’re working on adoption. That was never in the plan.
I just don’t know what to do.