Sorry for Disappearing

First off, Thank you so much for all your condolences.  They are so appreciated!  Uncle Tom’s “Celebration of Life” was this past Tuesday.  It was definitely hard to watch my Aunt and Cousins have to say that final goodbye.  I got to see a lot of family that we only seem to see at funerals these days so it was nice to catch up.

This past weekend, J and I had tickets to see Kenny Chesney and Jason Aldean at Lambeau Field in Green Bay.  If you don’t know, this is the Green Bay Packers stadium and the happiest place on earth for any Packer Fan, even if it’s not for a game!  🙂  I got J the tickets for his birthday and it was a nice weekend away.  One of the best we’ve had in a very long time.  Here’s a few pics:

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Waiting for Jason Aldean to start!

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The pups stayed with Grandma (my Mom) for the weekend.  This is on the ride home.  Our little family minus the kitties!

My last daycare kiddo to leave has his last day tomorrow and I also start my 3 week vacation.  We have no set plans at this time, but I’m super excited to just have some time off.  We got the letter from our health insurance today about the questions the adoption agency had for them so I’m hoping we’ll be able to get everything turned in next week.  I’ve been keeping up with all your blogs even if I haven’t been commenting.  Things have just been busy with meetings and getting our rental house ready for the new renters on Sunday.  J also has been taking on a ton of mowing and tree trimming jobs so it feels like I see him even less than I do during the school year.  The man has no clue how to relax and slow down!

Hope you are all well!

Lots of Love~Dawn

Heaven has Received Another Angel

And right now, it just feels like too many.  Both sets of Grandparents, Davage, Uncle Ray, Dad, Quamme, Brian, Our Baby, Grandma Dolly, Preston and now Uncle Tom.

I am Thankful that he is no longer suffering, but I hurt, especially for my Aunt and Cousins and for my Mom and Aunt (his Sisters).  He is donating his brain to science.  I hope and pray that this will help them find out more about this awful disease that is so rare.  I pray that they at least find medications that can help while searching for a cure, because right now, there is nothing.

Hug your loved ones a little tighter, my friends.  Death just sucks for those of us left behind.  Uncle Tom is up there right now having a beer with Grandpa, Uncle Ray and Dad.

Lots of Love~Dawn

Seriously Love my Nieces

So, one of my nieces had a birthday yesterday.  She turned 10.  J’s birthday was on the 12th so we always do their celebration with my family together.  Last night, we’re all at my Mom’s and we’re talking about Driver’s Ed.  I have a nephew still working on getting his license and my 15 yr old niece who is anxiously awaiting her permit.  So, J says even though he’d been driving motorcycles since he was young, he failed the first motorcycle written test because he thought the questions would be common sense and instead, he totally should have read the book they gave him before he took the test.  So here’s how the conversation between J, my 15 yr old niece, my Sister and myself went:

J:  Make sure you read the book.  Here was one of my questions on the test.  How far away from a crosswalk do you need stop if there’s a blind person in it?

Niece:  How would you know if the person was blind.

My Sister:  They would have a cane or a dog with them.

Niece:  While they’re driving?

Me:  They’re not driving…they’re blind!!!!

LOL…oh my gosh… it was hilarious and it just got funnier as the night went on and we retold the story.  🙂

In other news, I lose another daycare kiddo tomorrow.  😦  Also, serious cramping again this month…I totally think the endo is back with a vengeance.  I got my oils, now I just need to find time to do them a couple times a day.  The oral protocol had a pretty expensive oil in in so I’m doing the topical one and you need to put a hot compress over the oils when you’re done layering them.  There’s also a protocol that you use on your spine a couple times a week.

J and I are also finally back on track on the intimacy front.  It only took the first half of the year!  A flip got switched for both of us while he was in DC that week and it’s been great ever since.

This Saturday, we’re heading to Lambeau Field (the happiest place on earth for a Packer fan) for the Kenny Chesney/Jason Aldean concert.  I also start vacation about 4:30pm on the 26th so I’m super excited about that.  We still have come up with any kind of plans for it, but we’ll sort it out eventually.

We do some sad news awaiting us though.  My Uncle was put into hospice and it will be any day now.  He’s being kept sedated at all times at this point and he has an infection throughout his body.  I’ll be surprised if he lives past this week.

On the adoption front, I finally got a hold of our health insurance today and had a very friendly representative who even called me back after she got my email with the questions they needed to answer to let me know that the letter was sent to be mailed.  Now J needs to get a bunch of things signed, he needs to finish answering his questions and do his autobiography and we need to gather all our proof of insurances.  Make copies of everything and we can go turn it in!  Yay!!!

I hope all is well with you all and Congratulations to all the new Mama’s out there.  I’m super happy for you all!

Lots of Love~Dawn

Infertility Costs?

At this point, we are done with treatments, but this may be helpful to someone else, and maybe even us one day. Thank you, Sondra, for sharing!!!

A Calm Persistence

Finances are something that is not always talked about when you’re experiencing infertility, however it is one of the biggest burdens for some. In most states (and countries), with most companies, anything labeled as “infertility” is not covered.

I was very fortunate that my diagnosis was covered, which involved thousands of dollars worth of testing and about 40+ vials of blood. My head was spinning when I got the initial insurance papers and there were many, many tears wondering if insurance would even pay. I’ve learned a lot about dealing with insurance companies since my initial diagnosis almost 2 years ago now.

Even being diagnosed with PCOS, my RE has to be careful things are coded correctly otherwise my basic, much-needed care will be denied by insurance. I even have them listed in my phone under ‘favorites’–that’s how much I call.

I’m not about to have a discussion about our finances here…

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So This Happened Today….

J and I went to a graduation party today.  He and the kid’s Dad play basketball together.  We walk in and the 8th grade math teacher at J’s school (and who also happened to be my 8th grade math teacher in Tomah once upon a time) was standing there and says hi to me and asks me how I’m feeling.  I thought it was a little odd, but I just said I was good.  So then, a couple minutes later, she asks me how the baby’s doing.  Ummm….so I either look really good for what should be almost 30 weeks pregnant or I look awfully big for not being pregnant at all.  I’m not really sure which one it is.  J, of course said, it’s that I look great for what would have been 30 weeks, lol.

I then, of course, had to tell her that we lost the baby back in January and she apologized (many times) and said how did she not know this.  I just said that J doesn’t really talk about it too much.

So yep, that’s what happened to me today.

Noah

Some of you may remember that J has a cousin that is like a brother to him.  In fact, because of circumstances in their family, J’s parents took in his cousin and siblings and became their foster parents for awhile when they were growing up.  You may also remember that I adore his wife.  She is like a Sister to me and we talk pretty much weekly.  She is one of the few people that has said, “I can’t possibly know what you’re going through, but I’m here for you.  If you need to vent or cry, call me.”  She is AMAZING!!!

So, where am I going with this?  This morning, I received this text from her:

Hello my Dawny.  I had a dream last night that you were receiving a 9 week old baby boy.  As we arrived at your home to meet him, there was “Welcome home Baby Noah” banner above the house.  I must say, when I woke from this wonderful dream, I cried.  I believe it’s a sign, a reminder from God, keep praying, and this I will continue to do.  I love you.  Your baby is waiting for you.

Guys, I will admit, I also cried after her message set in.  It looks like, if we have a baby boy, his name will be Noah.  More than likely, it will be Noah Lucas.

I can’t wait to welcome God’s Blessing to our family!

Heartbroken

On August 7th, it will be 5 years since my Dad passed away.  When his wife decided to sell their house, she held a rummage sale and hired people to run it so she didn’t have to be there.  J and I decided to go and check it out.  I found this cup there:

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We bought him this coffee cup one year for either his Birthday or Father’s Day, I can’t remember which.  I just remember I was pretty darn young when we got it for him.  I love having this cup and drinking coffee from it.  I just feel closer to my Dad when I do.

Today, this happened:

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I was outside with the kids and was sitting in an adirondack chair and had it sitting on the arm of it next me.  Miss C came up and knocked it to the ground and it broke.  Ladies, I cried like he’d died all over again.  That probably seems a bit silly but I was and still am just heartbroken.  Yes, we can try and glue it back together, but I doubt I’ll be able to ever drink coffee from it again.    I have many mementos from my Dad, heck, we have a shrine to him and his military career over our fireplace, but that coffee cup was just very special to me.  Anyways, I don’t know, it just hit me really hard.  I called my Mom and was crying so hard I couldn’t even get out what happened.  Needless to say, I gave her a bit of a scare, lol.

This is also Miss C’s last day.  😦  Although I am the one to chose to have them go to a new daycare because I didn’t want to keep working so late every day, I am still very sad to see her go.  She is cute as a button and her family is just so awesome.  J and I are going miss her bunches!

I will end this post on a brighter note though….I get to go pick up my car today when I get off work!!!!  Yay…and J is home safe and sound from DC (and off mowing lawns already)!

Hugs~Dawn