to the point of feeling like I’m going to throw up. ¬†It sounds like they were going to look at ports for Baby S this afternoon. ¬†I so don’t want my hopes to go flying but I’m also having a hard time staying neutral! ¬†From what I’ve heard, they would like to place her Friday so a decision would have to be made by tomorrow I would think. ¬†Hopefully it’s made today, and hopefully, it’s us.

I think we would be the best family for her, but I’m sure all the couples that want her think that, lol. ¬†I feel like J and I’s experience with children and also dealing with foster care should be points in our favor but I don’t know that they even know that we are used to dealing with the foster system now because we weren’t in it when we did our portfolio and I don’t know if our case worker was able to share that info with them.

I’m pretty sure I will cry if we aren’t picked, then again, I’m pretty sure I’ll cry if we are!


Prayers Please!

I know, 2 posts in one day…crazy!!! ¬†I need to ask for prayers and positive thoughts from all my Ladies though!

We got an email from our agency about a 13 month old girl that has been in foster care since birth.  There was a problem with the home she had been in and they are looking for a new foster care home with a huge chance that this will turn into an adoption.  It sounds like BM will be looking at ports for any couples that are interested on Wednesday.  If you could send prayers up that we are picked, I would so appreciate it!

I’ll keep you posted as soon as I hear anything! ¬†Thanks Ladies!!!!

Leap Of Faith

Two weekends ago I was looking for a crib on craigslist because my part time daycare baby has not dealt well with transitioning from a rock and play to a pack and play. ¬†I’d had an extremely long couple of weeks because she was not napping well at all and that left her quite cranky! ¬†Well, that weekend, I happened into Shopko to pick up a Valentine’s gift for L after I dropped her, J and her half brothers off at the roller rink. ¬†Sitting at the end of a main aisle was this crib for $199.99. ¬†I am loving gray right now and it can easily be for a boy or girl so I called J up and asked if he was ready to take a leap of faith that we would have a baby at some point to use this crib full time. ¬†He said “Yes”! ¬†He and L put it together Saturday night while I was at a baby shower. ¬†ūüôā ¬†We both love it! ¬†L wants us to spray paint it pink, lol.


In other news, we decided this week that we are going to go for IVF this summer…unless something crazy would happen before then. ¬†I am going to call the clinic today to see if they can contact my Dr. here with all the tests that need to be done. ¬†I’m turning 39 in a couple of weeks and I do not want to do IVF after 40, so this is it for us and we didn’t want to get a couple years down the road and regret not doing it. ¬†So, if you have recommendations for me on supplements and the best things I can do to get my body in the best shape possible for this, I’d totally appreciate it! ¬†I do have “It Starts with an Egg” and “Fertility Diet” so I will definitely be consulting those but would love to hear what you think worked for you!

Let’s see, what else? ¬†J only has a couple weeks left of coaching and then I get to head back to the gym after work! ¬†Hopefully, I can make my butt go and get back into a good routine like I had in November. ¬†ūüôā ¬†L had a great couple weeks at school up until this past Thursday and then she hit 2 kids at recess. ¬†Hopefully she comes home with a smiley face today. ¬†We’re also getting ready to start figuring out her birthday party. ¬†We called a couple of hotels with pools around here and they weren’t cost effective at all! ¬†I think I’m going to try a place in my hometown and if that doesn’t work, we’ll just do a party here and then maybe take her to a indoor waterpark for a weekend. ¬†She really wants a swimming party.

I feel like there’s more I had to tell you guys, but of course, I can’t remember what it is for the life of me. ¬†I’m still not caught up on blogs, but I’m slowly working on it. ¬†Hopefully I will get there one of these days. ¬†I hope you are all doing well!

Lots of Love~Dawn


Bad to Worse

I will do a password protected post soon when I have time to write out more details but things went from bad to one of the worst possible situations we could have come up with this past week.

In other news, we have our first hearing on Monday for L.  The social worker is changed her concurrent goal to us adopting her and she said we then take it to court to see if everyone agrees.  I can guarantee BM will throw a fit.

I’ll try to update soon!


Where Do I Begin?

Seriously, where do I start? ¬†It’s been awhile since I’ve had the time to do a post; or if I have the time, I’m too tired to form words to write a post.

First up, I’m totally behind on almost everyone’s blogs…I’m sorry!!!! ¬†I think about you Ladies all the time and wonder how things are going, but have little time to read and catch up (except when I have insomnia at 2:30am and never go back to sleep but we turn the wifi off at night now so I can’t get on the iPad to catch up without coming out to the living room and plugging wifi back in).

So, when I last updated you, I really wasn’t sure whether or not I’m meant to be a Mom. ¬†Thank you for all the fantastic comments that made me feel so loved and cared for by you all. ¬†I think you’re all right and it is totally different when they are your own, BUT, I will also say, IF we end up child-free, I can now totally appreciate the blessings that come with that. ¬†If we wouldn’t have done foster care, I would never be able to say that. ¬†I now appreciate sleeping in, having time to myself, being able to go to the gym after work, and silence…I really, really appreciate silence without the constant question of why am I doing whatever it is I’m doing (usually in a very sassy tone).

We’ve gone through a lot with both girls already this past month and it’s been exhausting. ¬†L is still full of sass and attitude and I get a note from the teacher at least a couple times per week about her not keeping her hands to herself. ¬†I’m really not sure what else we can do. ¬†We’ve talked with her multiple times, made her bedtime earlier and taken away privileges.

We’re pretty sure they are working to re-unify L with Mom after school is out. ¬†They haven’t said anything but visits have gotten upped in frequency and time and also are happening at their house now too.

J has one month of coaching left and then he will finally be done! ¬†I cannot wait…3 seasons gets to be too much by this time of the year.

Daycare is super busy which is another reason why I’m so behind on your blogs. ¬†I now have 3 full time kids plus all my part timers and I swear, I have at least one kid most days that ruins my nap time break and that’s when I used to catch up with you guys.

The only time I make it to the gym these days is when I have an appt set up with my trainer (so twice a month)! ¬†I need to get up early and go but I just am not an early morning person much less wanting to work out. ¬†ūüė¶ ¬†So yeah, my health is kind of sucking at the moment because I haven’t been doing good about being even slightly on track with food.

The pups are good! ¬†Rocky turned 4 on Monday and Bandit will by 1 this coming Monday. ¬†Bandit got fixed a few weeks ago and I was consumed with guilt because he did not bounce back at all like Rocky did. ¬†You wouldn’t have even known Rocky had surgery and Bandit laid around for days in pain. ¬†I felt awful. ¬†He’s all good now though and very ready for it to warm up around here.

J and I are pretty sure we’re going to head to Vegas over Easter. ¬†We (especially me) really needs a vacation and to get away. ¬†I’m still waiting to hear from the social worker on whether or not Mom can watch the girls or how that works. ¬†If tickets are cheapish, we may bring H with us because her Dad and his family live there.

Alright, as usual, a kid is up way earlier than he should be so I better go. ¬†Hope you are all well and I will catch up soon and comment on posts way after the fact!!! ¬†ūüėČ

Lots of Love ~ Dawn