Feeling Defeated

I don’t know why, but I just can’t get rid of this feeling today.  I’m feeling defeated financially, I’m feeling like I will never be pregnant (never mind that fact that I could be right now, yet I still feel this way), and just in other things that J (DH) and I have been dealing with.

We decided to sell my car, posted it on craigslist awhile ago and finally had a guy come look at it on Sunday.  He only wanted to do $8500, I mistakenly said $8750 (we’re already going to be taking a loss so I don’t know why I went any lower than $9000).  He said he couldn’t do it so I thought that was the end.  He ended up calling a couple days ago and said he’d go up to my price.  I started panicking yesterday and so wanted J to call him and tell him I changed my mind.  This is the first car I’ve really been attached to.  It’s a red kia soul and J and I have been on some pretty spectacular road trips in this car.  However, if we’re pregnant (testing in 2 days) it’s not big enough for a baby and the pup.

I hate feeling like this.  I’m a worrier by nature and have the hardest time giving these things over to God like I should.  I have been praying though and I’ve rubbed some release essential oil on so hopefully this feeling will lift soon.