Wisdom has left my mouth (along with a molar)

Ladies…if there’s one thing I can recommend NOT to do doing your 2ww…it’s getting 2 teeth pulled.

At the end of this last school year, J convinced me I should really go in and get my teeth cleaned since we now have dental insurance.  J is religious about getting his 6 month cleanings done where as I have not been to the dentist since we very first started dating almost 4 years ago and has to get my top and bottom right wisdom teeth removed which resulted in dry sockets.  I was on vicodin for at least a month and it was just awful.

See post here about what led up to yesterday’s teeth pulling.  Needless to say, my thieves didn’t work, although, I think if I had started using it as soon as I realized the pain from the filling wasn’t going away, it would have.  Either way, I was already supposed to get my wisdom tooth out on 29th ( I had already cleared this with my RE) but the molar moved it up to yesterday.  Now, I absolutely hate having to take tylenol even when I’m not in a 2ww. Not wanting to put all the toxins of OTC and prescription drugs into my body is THE reason I got into Young Living.  Now I’ve been having to take it every 4-6 hours for the last almost 2 weeks and I absolutely hate the effect it could be having on my potential little bean.

I am of course worried about dry sockets.  A blood clot pulled out on both sides last night and I’m just praying they clotted up again.  I applied ice every 10 minutes last night like they said and have only drank from a cup and eaten soft foods (good way to be pushed into eating a little healthier).  I’ve swished 3 times so far today with a drop of thieves in water and have been applying moist heat as often as possible while running after three 1 year olds.   My right side that was giving me all the pain before the surgery hasn’t hurt at all, but my left side definitely does.  That was the wisdom tooth and they had to dig deep.  It was sideways and impacted (or is that the same thing, lol).

Anyways, that is my advice for the day…do everything you can to avoid wisdom teeth being removed during the 2ww.  Hope you all are doing well!!!

Hugs~Dawn

 

Beat up

My acupuncturist told me Sat. morning that it looks like someone’s been beating me up the past couple of days.  That someone is “life”.  About 2:30 Friday afternoon, I started having pain on my left side, went to the bathroom and I was spotting.  By a little after 4 (and 1 daycare kid left to be picked up) the pain was strong and constant.  I kept it together until little one was picked up and then immediately called my Mom bawling.  J was at the bank and cleaning my car out because the guy that bought it was coming to pick it up at 5:30.

I have to say my Mom is the most wonderful, supportive and empathetic Mom I could have ever asked for.  I hate, hate, hate living even 30 minutes away from her.  I don’t know how I managed spending 12 years 1100 miles away from her.   My Sister, Mom and I were supposed to be teaching a Young Living class Fri. night at my Mom’s house and instead of hanging out with 2 of my favorite people I was doubled over in pain with what I can only assume from past experience, was an ovarian cyst bursting.  If J hadn’t been due home soon, she would have jumped in her truck and come to my house to take care of me.  Who cares that people were due at her house in a couple hours!  I absolutely Love that Woman!!! 🙂

Instead, J got home and we decided not to go into urgent care as I am still paying on my ER bill from the last time I had a cyst burst almost 2 years ago before I had insurance.  And really, all they ever tell me is that I had an ovarian cyst and it burst.  No sense giving them money for that.  Instead, hubby brought my oils in, layered pan away and deep relief, and put a heating pad on top of that.  It helped, especially if I stayed laying down.  By this morning, my stomach was still a bit tender all over, but the intense pain was gone.

Now, here we are, 2 days later, Mother’s Day, and I feel pretty much normal again.  Sad and hurt that another IUI went bust, but happy to not be in pain.  As I sit here, waiting for J’s family to show up for a bbq that we’ll apparently be having in pouring rain now, I know that I am very Blessed in certain areas of my life.  I just wish that God would answer this prayer.  Our next step is waiting to hear from the clinic on Monday.  The nurse wanted to get me in for an ultrasound late this coming week but I guess the Dr. is out of town so she needs to check with her and see if she wants to squeeze me in on Tuesday or wait for the 19th.  I’m hoping she wants to squeeze me in.  I’d like to start figuring out if I have endometriosis or not and what our next steps will be.  J is all for IVF, I’m not so sure.  If any of you out there reading this have been through it, would you mind sharing your story with me?

Happy Mother’s Day to each and every one of you!  We may not physically have our babies yet, but they are already in our hearts!

Standing on my head…

Is it just me, or does anyone else feel like you should stand on your head for awhile after an IUI?  Laying flat for 15 minutes afterwards just doesn’t feel adequate enough to me, lol.  As you may have guessed, we went for IUI #2 on Saturday.  It’s been 10 months since our 1st IUI.  They upped my dosage on Letrozole by 5 mg this time and I took it cd3-7.  We had our mid cycle ultrasound this past Friday.  DH was unable to make it because he had to stay home and take care of the daycare kiddos.  My Mom was unfortunately bit by her cat the previous Sunday and has a useless left hand right now.  Apparently, cat bites can be as dangerous as the bite of a venomous snake bit according to the vet.  She’s been having to go to the hospital every 8 hours for IV antibiotics since last Wednesday.  So, moral of the story is, if you ever get more than a nip from a cat, go straight to the dr or hospital immediately.  Anyways, back to the ultrasound.  I really like our new clinic…so far it’s been all women that I’ve worked with which I kind of like.  They got me right in and were checking follicles and then they also wanted to check ovarian reserve and cervical length.  I had one 20mm follicle on my left ovary and then a 13mm on my right.  There was also other things on my right ovarian, they thought maybe a sac left over from last month or a cyst.  Nothing they were too worried about though.  They said the RE would look at the images for the other stuff and if this one doesn’t work she would use it to determine next steps.  I gave myself the trigger shot before I left the dr. office (DH did it last time) and we went in Sat. morning just before 11am to do the IUI since they’re not open on Sundays.  The IUI was still not pleasant but it was not nearly as bad as last time.  They have to use a tenaculam (or as I call it, the pliers) to pull on my cervix to get the catheter in.  The other clinic the RE took at least 30 minutes to do the procedure and I was in tears at least half the time.  This clinic I had a PA and she did it in less than 10 min with no tears.  DH’s post wash count was 70 million…way, way, up from last time.  I’m positive the old RE said it was only 5 million but the NP we talked at this clinic said 16 million was in our records….either way, it was way better than last time.  He has been using Young Living Blue Spruce to help bring his testosterone number up so I’m hoping that was part of it.  So on paper, our numbers are pretty good, but of course, as we all know, on paper means nothing when it comes to infertility.  So I’m officially in the 2WW and trying not to go crazy.  Using my progessence plus and gentle baby essential oils and just trying to stay calm and relaxed.  This is a crazy busy week so hopefully it’ll fly by and before I know it, the wait will be over.

Coming at it from all angles….

Infertility…it bites!  What bites even more is being in limbo.  Knowing that you’re infertile but not having the finances to really do anything about it.  Well, we have decided, finances be damned.  We are going after our greatest desire from every angle we can.  I am not getting any younger.  I just turned 37 last week and if we have to resort to IVF, our chances of succeeding just go down with each year.  DH and I have begun using Young Living Essential Oils to bring our hormones into balance, we have an appt. with a new Fertility Specialist next Tuesday that will hopefully listen to me a little more than the old one (after all, it is my body), we are going to have a consultation with an acupuncturist (just waiting for her to call back to set up appt.) and we’re meeting with an adoption agency on April 2nd.  One way or another, we know that God will Bless us with a baby.  In the mean time, we’re enjoying our time just the two of us, enjoying sleeping in and are taking a month off together this summer to do some traveling.  We know that we will never have $15,000 sitting around to do adoption or IVF so when the time comes, we will either take out a loan, fundraise on gofundme.com, apply for grants and scholarships or possible have to do all 3!!  We have been in limbo since July of 13′ so it feels GREAT to finally be proactive again.